A Boyfriend

sometimes i think, what is the meaning of boyfriend ?
boyfriend is someone who love and care to us.
honestly, i am jelaous with my friend who have a boyfriend
mereka dicintai, disayangi, dikasihi
i want get the same attitude
ak terus terus mencintai, tapi..
ak bahkan ga pernah tau ad yg mencintai ku (yg menyanyangiku mah banyak, sayang sama cinta beda)
apa mngkn memang belum ada ?
i don't know..
but, meski ak diberi kesempatan utk punya pacar, I SAY NO (thanks) :))
because i really really like my status now.
jomblo. ak bangga mengatakan nya

ada tiga target yg membekas d pikiranku

dulu, ak pernah berharap menjadi pacarnya
but now, never mind
kuakui, he is so handsome :)
but, don't that.
we are different !
maybe, we are same talk active (but just it)
you like travelling, but i don't
i like study, but you don't
you like sport, but i don't
and so on
ak merasa benar benar ga cocok.
I DON'T LOVE HIM AGAIN :))

target ku yg kedua ini hampir ak sebut sempurna (like my criteria)
but he isn't so handsome
he's smart. he's nice.
ak suka semua yg ada d dirinya.
ak hanya bisa bersama dia 2 tahun
he's get scholarship to java
since that, i lost contact with him
lagi lagi ak hanya bisa mencintai saja
I STILL LOVE YOU :))

target ketiga ini masih ak sukai sampai skrg
dia begitu tertutup
ak mrasa makin hari ak makin jauh dari dia
sometimes i thinking, 'i'm not so good for her girlfriend'
because i won't be his girlfriend walau ak sangat menginginkannya
i think i am freak.
i never feel enough in my life
i'm not sure for my third target.
it is so difficult
I'M NOT SO GOOD FOR YOU :))

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lagi lagi ak hanya bisa mencintai
mencintai mencintai
ak juga ingin dicintai ;(